I always knew I would light up the stage.
I knew my destiny was to be sharing my message with hundreds or thousands of people. To bring joy, happiness and hope to the people around me. And ultimately to entertain and bring light to the world.
My favourite quote for the longest time was this Mark Twain quote:
But, there was one problem… I was so incredibly shy.
I lacked confidence in myself. I often felt like I couldn’t even string a sentence together no matter how hard I tried. It was like the words didn’t want to come out. My palms would start sweating. My heart would beat super fast whenever I even thought about speaking to more than two people… even if it was my group of close friends.
I couldn’t for the life of me figure out how anyone could live as the quote suggested.
It was as though this crippling fear was holding me back. Like there was something stuck in my throat holding the words down.
I remember the first time I had to get up in front of the class to speak at school. We had to give a presentation about one of our favourite things. I chose to talk about dancing and brought in all of these sparkly costumes and props. I thought they might help take the focus away from me because I was so nervous.
When it was time for me to give my presentation, I got all my things together and stood up in front of the class. All I remember is that as I was standing there, looking at the sea of faces in front of me.
The words didn’t want to come out.
Before I knew it there was a kid in the front row pointing to a puddle on the floor around my shoes. All the other kids were trying to hide their giggles.
My teacher asked my best friend to take me out to the bathroom to get cleaned up. The tears streamed down my cheeks and the hot feeling embarrassment took over my body. There was so much shame attached to that moment for me. I know my perception of that event had a huge impact on my life for a long time.
That was until I embarked on my own personal journey of self discovery. An adventure that took me around my home country (Australia) and then around the world and back again.
It was (and still is) a journey of challenging my own boundaries. Of finding out what I am made of and who I could become…
If you’re ready to take that journey yourself it might be time to have a conversation.
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